Taryn sees red

Posted on December 28, 2018 Posted in Humor, Life, TravelTagged anger, Coping, Emotions, Family, feelings, Funny, Healing, Honesty, Humor, Las Vegas, Mental Health, therapy, Travel, Traveling, writingLeave a comment

I always try to have a positive/funny vibe when I write, but today I’m going to keep it real and try a little rage/humor.

Guys, I’m a rage monster today.

I’m a cranky, annoyed, frustrated, grumpy Taryn right now. I’m seeing red and wanting to do something about it. I’m kick-a-bunny angry. Trip-a-kid angry. Punch-an-old-person angry. Yeah, I’m a hot mess. The funny part? On the outside, I look like:

But on the inside, I’m like this:

WARNING: Actual sighting of Taryn. Beware

Here’s a quick rundown for my anger (in no particular order):

Bank of America and their shady savings account fees
Clients that aren’t on the same page internally and are giving contradictory feedback, wasting my time
Having to walk on eggshells because a person whom I’m stuck spending the next few days with changes her mood every nanosecond (technically this is my fault. I booked a hotel and then canceled. Idiot)
Las Vegas drivers
Feeling creatively stagnant (not for long!!!)

The Upside to Anger

There is a beauty to my rage-ness. Anger tells me that I’m feeling! As someone who typically struggles with identifying how I feel, this is a positive. I’m also able to identify why I’m angry. Anger also confirms why I left Vegas in the first place and why I have to keep going, in spite of being uncomfortable with entering unchartered territory. Anyway, I’m less angry now. I’d say I’m more in the range of ambivalent/annoyed with a side of hopeful. Who knew that writing was more beneficial than alcohol?!

Well, hopefully, you enjoyed my little rant. I will be posting about my travels in the next few days. In the last 3 months, Abbey and I have been to 9 states! It’s been a blast, but I will be taking a quick break in Oregon for a few months. Traveling is a blast, but honestly, I need a quick chill pill to keep on keeping on with my journey. Until next time!

Is this thing on?

Posted on April 29, 2017April 29, 2017 Posted in LifeTagged blogging, Coping, Emotion, feelings, INTP, Life, MBTI, Personality Type, return, Update1 Comment

Guess who’s back from the dead?!

… Well the blogging dead, that is,

After a year long unintended hiatus, I triumphantly return back to writing my thoughts aloud. A lot has happened in a year.

I conquered. I failed. I conquered again! I also failed again. But such is life and I’m learning to find the beauty of it all.

There’s a lot for me to share. Seriously, I’ve been a busy bee, but I don’t have the patience for organizing my thoughts right not (details are the bane of my existence), but I wanted to write just for the sake of writing. It’s been SOOOOO long since I’ve written anything for myself, and I suspect that it’s made me a little insane recently.

Logically Illogical

Last year, I figured out how to work my brain, which led me on this morally superior bent, touting my hyper rational ways of life. For reals, I was this douchey “I”m super smart and can think my way out of anything” person. Looking back, I have no clue how my friends and family tolerated my arrogant ass. But I digress. No matter how “logical” one may seem, you can’t explain away your feelings. In fact, the more I tried, the worse off I was.

My feelings are like an invisible hurricane, uncontrollably destroying everything in its wake, with no end in sight. Generally speaking, that’s where writing comes in. When I write, it’s like releasing a dam of pent up feelings. Like magic, whatever negative feeling I’m harboring gets released into the wild after a nice writing session. For some dumb reason, I quit writing and admittedly it was a terrible decision.

If I don’t process my emotions in a healthy matter, I tend to get self-destructive. Fortunately for me, I’m terrible at being an alcoholic and abusing substances just doesn’t hold its appeal, so back to writing I go! It’s been an interesting year, so I have a lot to unload, so stay tuned for some interesting stories as I dust the cobwebs off of this bad boy! It’s good to be back. 🙂

PS. For my fellow INTPS out there, here’s a nifty article on feelings. It’s good stuff!

Back from the…

Posted on April 8, 2016April 8, 2016 Posted in Living the DreamTagged adulthood, Adulting, anxiety, California, California Dreaming, Career, Career Planning, Coping, Freelance, friends, Fun, growing up, Life, Mental Health, Move, Transition, writingLeave a comment

ok, I get it- I suck at blogging regularly.

Hello friends! I have been busy… with life! While I can’t pour my heart and soul into this post, I’ll give you a few quick bullet points on the life of Taryn as of late. Continue reading “Back from the…” →

Constructive Criticism is a Necessary Evil

Posted on April 30, 2014May 3, 2014 Posted in LifeTagged Constructive Criticism, Coping, Due Diligence, ego, Freelance, Humble, Humility, Humor, Millenials, pride, Research, writing3 Comments

For me, constructive criticism can be a bitter pill to swallow. I fully understand that it’s meant to help make you better. Though I suppose I don’t like to admit that I need direction from time to time. During my time working as a freelance writer, I’ve been fortunate to find steady work so quickly. This also means that I haven’t had to face any real rejection or critiquing of my work. That being said I got my first taste of constructive criticism today and it took me a bit to come to terms with. I did however take the time to fully digest what they had said and despite my ego being in a tiff, I agree with their feedback. To give you a better understanding here’s my take on how I logically perceived the feedback and how my ego took it.

Logic:

Their points make total sense. It was more of a puff piece than actual research. I’ll dig a little deeper and present an article that is based on the research. Also I appreciate the fact they’re giving me the opportunity to redo the article rather than go with someone else.

Ego:

Well that’s stupid, the article wasn’t that bad. Sure I didn’t put in the legwork, but I’m awesome and I don’t have to. I don’t need to change my ways and I’m just gonna watch Duck Dynasty instead.

My mind works in weird ways lol. Fortunately for me, I’m going to side with logic on this one and redo the article. I tend to run through things rather quickly instead of making sure I’ve done my due diligence. . Because of my lack of experience/coping with constructive criticism it got me thinking about my generation in its entirety. I don’t like to speculate on people in masses, though I do wonder, are millenials equipped to handle rejection/criticism? I’ve been racking my brain and I can’t remember too many instances in which I’ve been a recipient of either. Also, I know in the past I haven’t always dealt well with criticism, no matter how constructive.This was a good lesson on the art of humility for me.

I’m also learning to keep my ego in check and fully understand why constructive criticism is so important. Sure it doesn’t always feel good, but in reality I gained more knowledge and understanding of the expectations of my assignment. Now I’m off to go do some research. 🙂

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